The first blog: An introduction to me and my eating disorder history:
Hello there 🙂 First things first, I better introduce myself.
My name is Violet and I am a 21 year old student from New Zealand. In my time on this earth I have experienced many sticky situations and challenges, that have caused me to suffer from poor mental health over the years, including being diagnosed with anxiety, depression, OCD tendencies and an eating disorder. One of my biggest struggles has been with my experience of EDNOS, which stands for Eating Disorder Not Other Wise Specified. Basically this is a form of eating disorder, which either does not meet all the criteria for specified types, such as Anorexia Nervosa, or combines elements of different types of eating disorders.
For me, my eating disorder has included aspects of Anorexia, Bulimia, Binge Eating Disorder and Orthorexia. It all began when I was 13 years old and in my 9th year of school. Upon going through the painful experience that is puberty, I decided to go on my first proper diet. At first, everyone, including myself, was extremely proud of my results, I was excelling in a way that no one had predicted for someone my age. As I progressed through my weight-loss journey, however, I began to grow obsessed, and engaged in unhealthy behaviours such as; binge-purging, restricting my calories, using laxatives, only eating “clean foods” and other unhealthy methods (which I will leave for another story time/post). I lost almost 30 kgs in 3 months, and became severely unwell. I was admitted to the Dunedin Hospital Paediatric ward, with a resting heart rate of 30-40 beats per minute, and spent over 3 months on total bed and wheel chair rest.
Fast forward through years of relapses, and completely new eating disorder pattens, and I have finally arrived at a place of peace with my body. I definitely still have my down days due to other mental health issues, especially my anxiety (more about that later as well), but I choose to soldier on through, and fight the ED voices demands with all of my will power and strength. My hope is that through this blog, and my Instagram page (@itgetsbettermentalhealth), I will be able to help others feel less alone in this struggle. Eating disorders are extremely common, yet also overwhelmingly misunderstood by the majority of society. By sharing our stories and experiences, whether they be positive or negative, we can path a future of better awareness, and deeper understanding, that may even be able to save lives.
I am so grateful (and humbled) that you have taken the time to click on that link, and that you have read through this wee rant! I honestly and truely cannot tell you how much it means to me that you care about mental health awareness, mental health advocacy, eating disorder awareness and most of all recovery. Remember, IT DOES GET BETTER xox (I’ve lived through it, trust me)
P.S My hope is to be able to post on this blog at least twice a week, but it will have to be negotiated with my study, and placement schedule (second year nursing arrrgghh). I look forward to continuing with this discussion, and sharing more in depth details about my story, in the near future.
If anyone would like to send me an email, you can do so via firstname.lastname@example.org, or you can message me via my Instagram page @itgetsbettermentalhealth. I would love to be able to give you support or advice, or even just listen to your story. Until next time!